separation sucks

so we've separated. again. except this time we are in the same house because the thought of moving for the 6th time in two years exhausts me. I am so sick of moving and I can wait til january to buy a condo and move one and for all or I can move for 6 months, get a condo, and move again. but moving 2 times in 6 months? yuck! I just want to be some where for longer than a year. and I havent had that is so long....

went on a date. it was nice. weird to be dating, but since things are over, better jump back in some time or another. spent last weekend at home moping. not that fun. spent last night at dinner and watching football with someone nice who didn't need to go to AA or have a DUI. very sweet guy. am starting to think sweet guys might not be a figment of my imagination. and am learning that sweet lawyers ARE a fantasy. 3/3 of the lawyers- egotistical SOBs. and thats putting it mildly. including the soon to be ex.

at least work is going well and I love my job. I am VERY fortunate in that regard. despite that I love my job, I have this never ending fear that my boss hates me. probably because he is extremely serious and that automatically makes me thing that he hates me. cause seeing him laugh is infrequent, but he is very nice. just hope I am not somehow screwing this up and that I am earning my keep at the company. had some ads published in a magazine that came out this week. tres excited. they look good.

thats really all for now. Just and interesting situation. I tell the husband that to be with him I need a.) quality time with him and b.) more sex. his response was that every man with a professional career does not have time to spend with his wife on saturdays and those that do are just trying to get in my pants. something, like common sense, tells me he is full of it.
just sad. I tried my best, but I cant make him sober or make things better. and I intend to have an actual wedding someday and wear one of those two dresses in my closet with a man who will take marriage and love seriously.